Hold On
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Hold On
PLEASE NOTE: I do not and will not hesitate to delete rude comments left by obnoxious people. Whether it's insulting the video or others' comments, I don't tolerate it simply because it breeds petty argument and I hate having to sift through comments on other videos to find anything decent or valid. If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all. I sometimes have to stop and think about what I've done, and I wonder if it was really worth it. It's been 9 years of darkness, pain, humiliation, and agony. I remember my bones, the whisper of skeleton beneath disfiguring flesh. That fleeting sense of accomplishment so quickly consumed by absolute disgust. I wanted skin and bones, to see every rib distinctly. jutting hips, concave belly. I wanted anti-matter. So, I took diet pills diuretics laxatives ipecac adderall Ritalin cocaine and methamphetamine. I never ate. I went from 130 to 120 to 110 to 100 to barely there. But still all I could ask myself was Why aren't you perfect? What's wrong with you? Why don't you have any self control? You're hideous. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I was broken And I was dying And I didn't care. I'm so sorry. I'm trying. Please, Hold on.
YouTube | June 18, 2008
