Memories: A Jonas Story Ch 55
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Memories: A Jonas Story Ch 55
[Sorry if i make you cry... if i even do that... but smile cuz theres a sequel!] Chapter 55- And then it happened: what I feared the most. Three months after getting released from the hospital I was back in and two days later my last breath escaped from me. The last few weeks of my life were the worst. I had gotten so sick that I could barely get out of bed and eating was a challenge since I would just throw up anything that landed in my stomach. Nick stayed by me every second. And of course so did my family. I wanted this all to end happy, but we all knew that getting our hopes up wasn't even worth it: my fate was already determined. And now for the memory I never want to relive. As I struggled to pull through the blackness that surrounded me, I heard the continual beeping of monitors in my room. I heard people shouting and crying at the same time. The voice I heard above the rest was Nick's. I could distinguish his voice from a mile away. I tried so hard to come back to him, but the harder I tried, the further I ended up pushing away. I knew that I only had seconds, and there was one thing that I wanted to say to him before my existence faded into nothingness. I was determined to use all my might to get what I needed out. "Nick, I love you." That was all that was in me. I wanted to say more, but I knew I wasn't able to. Then, out of the blackness I heard a broken scream. "Madison. God Damn it Madison, don't leave me. Please dont leave me." I felt someone's head on my stomach shaking with his violent tears. And then shortly after, I felt something meet with my lips. It was a soft kiss, but just enough for me to remember forever. I still can feel it on my lips. And then, I heard a soft whisper in my ear that was strained from crying. "I love you." And then I left Nick. The world went on turning with him, but without me. I will never forgive myself for doing that to the person I loved the most. But, then again, as I have been going over my memories, I realized that maybe life was supposed to happen this way. Maybe the reason I left Nick was because he was meant to meet someone else. I just wasn't the right one after all, and I was okay with that. I knew he would be happy no matter what he chose to do: and that made me happier. There were bigger plans for him and me. I will always keep watch over him and my family making sure they never cry over me too much: that's not what I asked for. I want them to keep living while I can't. And now since you know all the memories that I have kept with me, I guess it's time for me to say goodbye. I have to let go. I can't keep holding on to what I will never be able to have. I will always keep those memories with me as I watch over the people I love, but that's it, nothing more. It's time for me to move on. It's time for me to spend time with my mom: time that I get back now that I am reunited with her. It's time for me to say goodbye to the life I once loved. Goodbye. It's time for me to fly... ...I feel a song coming on =) [Song: Time For Me to Fly Artist: Jonas Brothers]
YouTube | December 18, 2008
